wiierd,
I feel like i’ve been dating my boyfriend forever but its only been four months, and its probably the happiest i’ve been in awhile. I felt like I should write on here since I haven’t blogged in a while. over the past few months a lot has gone on. i still cant stand my dad im closer with my mom im friends with people i would never have thought i would be friends with, im doing good in school, im actually goin to school, im changing for the better and i like it. i have more than a month til i officially a senior. crazy. im growing up and i don’t know how i feel about it.
crazy…
you know whats crazy going through your old tumblr post about a stupid boy and thinking how crazy i was to even give that kid a chance. i was so stupid to let myself fall into his trap oh so many times. but you know you live and you learn from it.
my boyfriend is > than yours<3
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people have no idea what ive been through.
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i never would have to think about quitting volleyball… its gonna be my senior year and i basically get told by my coach im gonna get cut.. and that hes gonna play underclassmen over me… i dont even know what im gonna do.. this sucks.. fuck my life. i dont understand anything. i feel like i have nothing going for me right now.
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glee all day<3
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Happy birthday to me (:
im officially 17 (:
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having feelings for someone is such a waste of time..
especially if you know its not gonna go anywhere /:
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Dear Best Friends,
Lately, you are the only things I look forward to in my waking moments. Our chats make my day because it’s the only time I smile and laugh despite our bitter lives. We find humor in everything, even our pain. I believe that is the mark of true strength. You are one of the strongest people I know and I have no doubt you’ll be able to surpass anything life throws your way so don’t ever give up. I will always be with you. Just look up at the stars and you’ll see me smiling back at you. It’s amazing how distance can be so irrelevant when you find true friendship, when you are able to make your presence felt across all the oceans through the other side of the world and across the time difference. You are blessings in my life that I am eternally grateful for. At least once in my life I can say I was lucky enough to have people like you in it. No matter how short the time it’s been since I’ve met you because time seems irrelevant too. What matters is everything we’ve shared with one another. I see myself in you. Your scars, your monsters, your crushed heart, your shattered soul. And I see our beauty mirroring in one another. I have only ever seen beauty in fragile broken things and to me you are perfectly beautiful. Perhaps I am too when I see you through my eyes. So thank you very much for that. I am so thankful for your mere existence. Always remember not to settle for anything less than you deserve. Whenever you find yourself second guessing your worth, think of me. I trust that you’re going to do that. Here’s to being together in the future when we’re all happy and whole and at peace. I’ll see you then my lovely souls.
I love you.
Always.
last practice of the week then out with my lovely aunt<3
soo happy i dont have to go to my dads (:
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such a rough day…
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My love for you was bulletproof but you’re the one who shot me.
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im getting distracted when i should be packing for my lovely dads…
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so much for being bestfriends..
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i just love when people make it look like its my fault when its not.
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